Eleven years ago, a prosecutor outlined how the author's brother, Tim, killed their mother. The evidence included bagged knives, a coroner's report, and bodycam footage of Tim crying out, "I hope she isn't dead." Tim's trial centered on whether he was in control of his mind. Before the murder, Tim had experienced mild symptoms in his late teens, including delusions that his landlord was poisoning his food, that demons were stalking him on his college campus, and that an enchanted coin was hovering above his head. He visited counseling and saw psychiatrists, but the care he received was ineffective. Threats of suicide led to a brief hospital stay, but the experience was combative and unhelpful. He returned home, flushed pills down the toilet, and locked himself in his bedroom. The author notes that this story is not unique and is familiar to many who have witnessed loved ones trapped in cycles of illness and inadequate care. After Tim killed their mother, newspapers featured the family home on front pages with the word "Matricide." Many articles mentioned "a history of mental illness," but the broader context was often overlooked. The author has followed updates from the Lindsay Clancy trial, noting how it has captured public attention. Discussions about Clancy's guilt have been intense, similar to debates about football players. The author reflects on how serious mental illness rarely makes news unless it is tied to a horrific crime or a dramatic trial. After the tragedy of their mother's death, the author discovered her collection of books on mental illness, including Surviving Schizophrenia: A Family Manual and I Am Not Sick, I Don’t Need Help: How to Help Someone with Mental Illness Accept Treatment. These books revealed the author's lack of understanding about conditions like anosognosia, a condition in which people are unaware of their illness, and the systemic issues in mental healthcare, such as the shortage of psychiatric hospital beds and insurance denials. The author wrote a book about Tim, hoping to help others before it was too late. They received messages from readers who had experienced similar tragedies. While it would be irresponsible to diagnose Lindsay Clancy without knowing her clinical history, the author emphasizes the potential power of untreated psychotic disorders and the challenges in accessing sustained mental healthcare. They mention postpartum psychosis, a severe condition that is often ignored or mistreated. After Tim's trial, a three-judge panel declared him not guilty by reason of insanity. He did not walk free but was placed under the custody of the state psychiatric review board. The author visited Tim in a psychiatric facility after the trial and noted that he did not seem relieved or as if anything was over. The author reflects on the ongoing struggle Tim faced, which did not receive media attention or public debate.