A woman who claims she was physically and emotionally abused by her mother from a young age has shared how a particular song became a trigger for her traumatic memories. Pixie-Rae Price, now 40, said she associated the opening bars of ABBA’s song “Fernando” with the approach of her mother, Laura Price, who would often bring violence into her life. The song would play downstairs shortly before Pixie heard her mother’s footsteps heading toward her bedroom. Even now, she finds it difficult to listen to the song without experiencing emotional distress. Pixie-Rae described her mother as a devoted parent to outsiders, who gave her everything she wanted. Growing up in Hersham, Surrey, Pixie had access to dance lessons, gymnastics, and horseback riding, and her mother appeared to be a loving and supportive figure. However, behind closed doors, the reality was far different. Pixie described her mother as a heavy drinker who also used cannabis and struggled with severe mental health issues. Laura would host “alcohol sessions” in the living room, often becoming quickly upset and directing her anger toward her daughter. Pixie later discovered a doctor’s note from when she was just one year old that stated she was a victim of physical abuse from her mother and had been placed on CPR. The abuse was not only physical but also emotional, and Pixie said she largely blocked out the trauma until she began therapy. Her mother, she claims, blamed her for everything and used cruel words like “fat,” “ugly,” and “selfish” to describe her. Pixie began drinking alcohol to cope with her experiences and later developed anorexia, requiring hospital treatment. She described herself as a “functioning alcoholic” and entered rehab in 2022 when her drinking became unmanageable. After several relapses, she went cold turkey in 2023 and has since remained sober. She moved out of her mother’s home at 15 and had an “on and off” relationship with her family before cutting contact completely. When her mother died by suicide in 2017, Pixie experienced conflicting emotions, mourning someone she saw as an abuser. While she did not feel glad her mother was gone, she has since come to forgive her, acknowledging that no one deserves to die by suicide.